go back to old ideas, break them and create something new

I have been trying to find something new everyday,
even though such a tiny ting, it is still something new
or different from yesterday. Every day, just one,
Often, I have to break my previous ideas, take only some elements,
or even go back to the old ones.

Do not try the same thing, and do not stick on the same idea.
All ideas and images came from the same concept, so I am not going far away
from my theme. Always have a flexible mind in changing my mind.

Also someone's opinions helped me a lot.
When I could not find any ways to go next step, someone always helped me.
Listen to myself and listen to someone, and listen to and see what I made.

samples, samples and samples...

The college finished last week for Christmas holiday,
but I am still here in Edinburgh, not going anywhere.

I still kept on making lots of enameled samples to achieve my images!!
Enameling is such a fun, but so many ways to create new things.
This time, I tried not to make a mess,
keep them simple in lots of different versions.
It is not always good to bring all elements together,
sometimes, I need to be brave to separate them
to make simpler and sophisticated. I quite satisfy with them.

 

I am getting my final images....

full of ideas....

My head is always full with new ideas, never stop working.
One thing comes to me, and I try it, then I find the other thing,
and try it, and then again I find something else.

Once ideas have come into my head,
I want to make them immediately, but...
Am I really sure on this idea with this elements?
Am I really sure of making this now?
Always I talk to myself.
Ok, let me think again, do not rush it, take the time.

I do research more, draw more, and make more test pieces
until the other better ideas come into myself.
Do not compromise with the current idea,
Find something much better or improve more.
Maybe I will not be able to find the best ones,
but till then, I try hard to find them.

Then I find something I have not seen yet,
something I wanted to achieve, or something I will never satisfy with.

Take one and throw one away,or hold both, again and again,
feeling like I am not going forward at all.
But, once I find something and create them,
I can finally feel I am going forward step by step.

I am not stopping there, 

but I control myself, my sense control me, and I follow my own sense.

Never ends.



頭の中がいっぱいだ。
何かを見つけては、
また何かを見つけ、
そこでまた何か見つけ、
それの繰り返し。

何か思いつくと、すぐに
作ってみたくなる。
でも本当にこれでいいのか？
今すぐこれ作ってみるのか？
ちょっと待って、もう一度よく
考えてみる。
そういつも自分に問いかける。

もっと探して、もっと描いて、もっと試してみる。
もっといいものが出てくるまで。
現状あるものに満足しない。もっといいものがあるはず。
それが見つかるまでは、ただひたすら探す。

そして今まで見たことのないものを見つける。
今まで見たことのなかった、達成してみたかった、そして決して満足しないものに。

一つ取っては一つ捨てる、もしくは両方残す。何度も何度も繰り返す。
全く前に進めていないんじゃないかと思う。

でも一度何かを見つけて作ってみたら、やっと前に進めてるような気がする。

立ち止まってるんじゃない、
自分をコントロールしつつ、感性にコントロールされつつ、自分の感性に流されながら。

そして決して終わらない。

possibilities...

After I had struggled in designing and developing ideas,
finally I found some clues last week for my future pieces.

I could made lots of designs this weekend, so I am just exciting
to go back to the studio this week!

I walked along by the canal, and the water was completely frozen!
It is amazing views and looks like a skating rink.

ceramics

I learn ceramics once a week for my research, one of my portfolio.
After I started using enamel, I have been fascinated by enameled
texture on metal and also ceramics. Especially Grazing and turning skills!!
I do not why ceramics attracts me this much, just so beautiful.

Those are some I made last 2 months. They are still odd shapes,
but I quite like them in some ways.

To test some texture, I put glass scrap inside. They turned out great.

bamboo, roof, nail??

This week, it was such a snowy week I have never experiences in my life.
I didn't mean to come to a snowy country,
but it is really snowy everyday, never stopped!!

This is the work for a collaboration with a costume girl.
She is interested in my work and I am also in her works!
Those are nails, which have never been cut, for a boy, Peter,

I am quite happy with the outcome, although I was thinking to make them
much longer,but it seems scary enough!

Also, this each half tube shape looks like t bamboos or roof tiles,

so I played around to find more potentiality for my own works.

The texture and colour are great!

and snow and snow in the city!

snow

It has been snowing since last Friday.
This has been the earliest snowfall for 17 years!
I love Edinburgh when covered with snow, very quiet and beautiful.

Also, I have struggled with my work for a while....
I thought I was achieving somewhere with many test pieces,
but at the moment, I feel like I lost my way in Japanese architecture..
But I quite like all of them, the texture, quality, and weight.
I try to kick myself ahead more and more!! also dissertation....

space?

I have been thinking about the space, form
and patterns of Japanese architecture. I am currently trying many things
at one time, so my brain is totally full, panicked!
Space, shape, texture, pattern, colour, concepts, and meaning, mmmm......
Also, it is very important for me to read some books
of Japanese architecture in order to know more about the background
and history rooted deeply in Japanese culture.

Here, some samples of creatig space and texture of natural materials.

 

tatami

Tatami is a straw mat in Japanese house; the size is 90cm x 180cm.
At the moment, I focus on elements of teahouse, of course tatami!
Most of the teahouse has about four and a half tatami mats inside,
which means they serve the green tea in that small area.
Again, I have started making models from teahouse's elements
and play around them!

    

Oh, also I drew a line to see the scale of real tatami mat in my studio.
This is not a barrier between you, just come and see me here,
I will make a cup(bowl?) of green tea! Bend your knees and sit here!?
I felt it is quite big for one tatami, don't you think so?

arthur's seat

These days, it rains every day, but I am a sunny girl,
and also my friend is, so it is always no rain when we go out, great!
Probably, this "sunny girl" is our definition in Japanese culture.
It was chilly last night, but the clear sky and half moon.

it's a day for paper models.

Today, I have been making paper models all day for 5 hours,
listening to Japanese music. It was really really nice to put ipod on
in the studio to concentrate myself. Fantastic day!

I didn't use any torch or metal, just paper and glue,
which is good to change my way of developing ideas,
because I always start making by metal. Before making by metal,
it is essential to see scale and structure by models.

        

It allows me to expand lots of possibilities in many ways, great.
It does not matter if it becomes sculpture, jewellery or just object.
I have not committed myself to be a jeweller, but an artist.
"see what happens!"

samples

I have been fascinated by Japanese architecture since last term,
so I am currently making some samples with the elements of it.
Those are samples and tests for my future pieces.
"see what happens!"

          

I am keen on thinking of comfort and touch of my pieces,
because I make jewellery and it is body pieces,
which is supposed to be put or touch on bodies.

   

　　　　　　                            

Possibly one of neck piece or brooch or....?

It has been wonderful autumn already in Edinburgh! Pretty!